The only thing I know right now is that I don’t know where to start. It seems my brain always works hardest when I want it to stop. I have learned that I should not take things in this life for granted because you can’t be sure of anything on this earth. Things can change in a matter of moments one decision can change your life forever. Each day exists for itself. It is not contingent on the day before. People will change as will feelings and emotions. As time goes on we become a new person. Life shapes us and makes us better or worse. I have learned that I know very little and my decisions have caused me a lot of pain. Nevertheless I continue on because I know that above my understanding of everything there is a God who is in control.